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Within the space of our own minds there lie mysteries. Why can’t I seem to stop eating
candy? Why do I dislike others so
intensely? Why do I get sad when it
rains, and happy when its sunny (or the reverse)? The simplest explanation for all of these phenomenon lies in
the neural circuitry itself. These
things happen because certain circuits are fired in response to certain
stimuli. When these circuits are
fired often enough, we begin to develop an aggregate personality based on their
habitual firings. Our
personalities largely derive from our habits, our exposures and our imprints.
In the parlance of forgotten shelves and dusty grimoires
demon has the definition of some external entity in some overlapping subtle
realm that has the power to possess and control our behavior when undignified,
and to grant us suprahuman abilities and knowledge for a price when dignified
or contained. Among many dualists,
the word demon connotes a class of such entities that are somehow evil or
malign in direct opposition to forces of good and ultimately humanity. An earlier definition, the greek:
daimon, latin: daemon, refers to any divinity, or lesser spirit, or tutelary
deity.
The elaborate procedures utilized in order to either affect
a possession experience, or communication with a specific entity turn on
specific neural circuits in a specific sequence so that they either override
the ‘normal’ map of personality or project themselves onto the screen of external
reality. A certain program,
enacted in the physical world, increases the likelihood of execution of certain other
embedded programs. These strange
programs can aid in rewiring the mundane habits of circuitry. They seem to have
their best effect when used in the short term and many (not all) long term
users tend to develop unpleasant side effects from lengthy ritual
procedure. Due to the habits of
common ancestors the anatomy of each homo sapien has enough similarity that most of
us contain the capacity for many of the same connections in circuitry. Modern science indicates that humans
have grown all of the neurons we get for an entire lifetime either before birth
or shortly after being born. The
combining and synapsing of these billions of circuits occurs until the day we
die.
‘Demon’ conveniently classifies certain neural programs as
those which are most effective at ripping old circuitry apart and forcefully
plugging in and making new circuits in somewhat unpredictable sequences of
predictable patterns. Agony,
obsession, anger, strange sensations, unusual thoughts, and feeling of other can occur as a direct result of these unpredictable sequences and will remain if
the chosen program is aborted early and not completed. Discipline and trust in one’s person,
as well as a firm situating in the buddhi are a solution to enduring this process.
Just as each cell has a program for it’s death written in
its dna, human beings have circuits that, when fired in a series or
consistently fired, have a tendency toward enacting destructive behavior. These destructive circuits exist within
all of us to some extent. The skillful
practitioner, long in the tooth in the practice of external visualization can
work himself into a trance state, fire a demonic circuit and project it
outward, giving it a physical appearance.
If the practitioner, after much hard discipline, can remain detached
from the experience, and is well situated in the buddhi, this experience can give
much insight into the inner workings of his own person, can alight intuition,
etc. By externalizing this force,
the beneficial aspects of the circuitry can be exemplified, while the
destructive aspects are mitigated.
I followed Crowley’s structure and as I worked I mutated it
into my own utilizing intuition.
Success was determined by a certain series of specific sensations during
ritualized movements that I was able to replicate each time. I convinced myself that these
sensations meant it was working and that I would then have the ability to
visualize my circuitry and affect forceful changes. These changes were intuitive and therefore logically
unpredictable, the space they took place required there be so little normal
consciousness that the changes dripped their way onto my internal screen as
shadowy figures, women with swords and bloody hands that threatened to cut off
my head if I couldn’t remain still.
I trusted that whatever changes took place were necessary and wouldn’t turn
me into some type of human disaster. I think maybe it worked, but still often feel like a human disaster.
After many months of finally, successfully, enacting the
firing of this strange circuitry it seemed as though I had some clairvoyant
ability, saying what someone else was thinking frequently, having the ability
to tell who was about to arrive, like I was just above and able to view the
horizon from anywhere. That a
specific series of circuits were consistently fired in my neuroanatomy during
this period I have no doubt. That
I possessed, for this time, some ability above and beyond? Strange circuit firings will alter one’s
lookout, or process of perception.
The program that ran could have enabled my belief in these things so
strongly that it seemed they occurred while back in consensus reality…
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